It has been amazing weeks after shahada. For two weeks as Japanese Muslim revert, I found out there are some outer and inner changes to share.
1. More learning opportunities on Islam
Since reverting to Muslim, I got kind supports from brothers and sisters. One of those is an invitation to join classes for Islamic studies at Tokyo Camii on weekends. Because of it, I got to join several classes, Basic Islamic lecture for Muslimah, Lecture of an important lesson from hadith and Arabic class for reading Quran.
Previously even I was learning Islam by reading related books or asking questions to my Muslim friends but I know that I was just a Japanese who is interested in Islam.
But when I actually reverted to Islam, they treat me as a real family like family want to provide good education to their child. The great thing about learning together with family is simply I can keep my motivation not to give up on learning the universal topics can apply to all individuals in our lives.
It is from A to Z and it cannot be done all by intensive course, so it will take time. But I do find myself enjoy learning what I find interested in for my life.
2. Better attitude to talk with people
As part of one big family in Islam, I have got to know lots of brothers and sisters after the revert. Once they met me and knew that I am new Japanese Muslim revert, they always congrats me with saying, “welcome back to Islam, sister”.
Every time I go to Tokyo Camii to study or pray, brothers and sisters Salam me and I found out it does not matter we have known each other. After that I learn giving salam first is better than that you are waiting for it so I try to say “Assalamualaikum” when I meet brothers and sisters.
Some sisters talked to me and asked, “Are you Japanese?” and I say yes they ask more about me. Previously I was not good at talking about myself and socializing with people due to less confidence in myself but I realized I talked to them with relaxed and calm attitude than ever. I guess it’s all because now I know we are family to take care each other and also I do feel appreciation for the opportunity Allah provide me to meet siblings in Tokyo.
3. More spontaneous decisions
As baby Muslim, I have a lot of things to learn. It is literally a lot! Unfortunately, I heard some of the reverts gave up their learning due to pressure to follow and focus the Dos and Don’ts as soon as possible or perfectly. I feel sad when I listen to those stories.
I believe in any things either studies or working, the important is willing to do rather than forced to do. If I willingly try something new it leads me to find out what is difficult or what is easy for me and it promotes spontaneous learning process.
Now after I became to be a Muslimah, the spontaneous willingness became more than before. Especially I found out the importance by addressing “it is by my will” for example to clean up myself for prayers and when I initiate praying. Not only for those situations but also in other daily decisions on what to do or not do, I try to choose the decisions which Allah likes us to do in our life with my own will.
Alhamdulillah. I can’t wait to see how I will change more throughout my journey as Muslimah. Accept whatever I have or receive and keep moving forward.